abandoned

I am filling out a questionnaire for a workshop I will attend in a couple of weeks. The question at hand has to do with my present relationship with God. In answering, something was revealed to me.

I feel abandoned.

Abandoned. Forsaken. Neglected. To turn away from entirely. Deserted.

It feels like more than just loneliness. It is deeper. Heavier.

Discarded. Rejected.

Yes, I know God says, never will I leave you, never will I forsake you. But I still feel that way. From God, from family, from friends. In general. In life.