God is teaching me that I cannot rely on my understanding or my perception of a situation. True understanding and complete perception lies in Him alone. Being someone who really enjoys making plans and know what direction things are going in, it can be difficult when I don't seem to have a clue. Recently I was doing some studying some events in the life of Jesus. The healing of the bleeding woman taught us that He has authority over disease and the resurrection of a little girl teaches us that He has authority over death. The funny thing is that He was afforded the opportunity to show His authority over death because the woman "interrupted" His journey to heal the sick little girl and allowed enough time for her to die. Upon arrival at the house, He created a private moment and healed her. At times Jesus allows a delay and an apparent worsening of the situation in order to bring more glory to Himself. I must choose to trust His timing, His wisdom, His leading in the many occasions that I simply do not understand.
Take today for instance. I had coffee with a friend and upon leaving the mall, I had already set my mind on taking the bus home - a nice 30-40 minute ride back to my street. The red and green bus pulled around the corner (and no it is not because of Christmas!) and I climbed aboard. After some time of winding through the streets of Miraflores, we came upon a detour. We were in gridlock while herds of people were walking the other direction, dressed or decorated in purple. Today is All Saint's Day and they had closed down a number of streets on my route in order to take the idols for a walk. After we passed through the gridlock, I assumed we were making our way back to the original route; but something within me told me I had gotten on the wrong bus. Panic arose and I began to look for a place to get off and for another familiar bus. I was using the time to pray and try to understand how God was at work in my life through the various situations I am faced with. I had no idea what direction I was headed, I had no idea where the destination would be, but I had to calm my heart and trust that God was in control. Eventually, I realized I was headed back to my street; I had taken the scenic route which afforded me a 2 hour journey, a cobrador who was upset I paid only 1 sol for my trip and time to be reminded I must trust.
When I want to know what the outcome will be of a difficult situation...trust
When I claim to not understand...trust
When I desire answers, reassurance...trust
When I cannot see the end at the beginning...trust
Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
Lean not on your own understanding.
In all of your ways acknowledge Him and
He will make your path straight.
Proverbs 3:5&6
My prayer is that I would trust My God with the unknown, the unseen and uncontrollable. May He and He alone be Lord over my heart.
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